c0klat's Diaryland Diary

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a first.

there are so many things to say of 2008. but how do i start to list between the highlights of the year and something important and dear to me. i think i rather not cos it seems like neverending. seriously, i am just happy where i am right now. taking risks and chances are never me. but still i think the day i sent out my resignation few months ago when everyone else was asking me to hold on to it was a great choice ever made this year. even today my mum told i made the right move. it does. because then it opened up a new challenge for me. i never knew i had all the patience in me.especially for a hot-tempered like me. my tolerancy level has obviously doubled, if not tripled. i never thought i would end up where i am right now. but i guess it makes sense. cos i can never do a 9-5 job in front of the PC. i can never sit around and count numbers. i need to jump, move around, sing, hug and the best thing is learning something new everyday from a child.

i never want to forget my 2008 cos really, i think i have somewhat matured in many ways that others probably can't tell. i've changed my perceptions of friendship, love, relationship and family. i learnt to make new friends not foes. i learnt to forgive and forget. i learnt to love not to hate. i learnt that no matter how much you tried to hate that person if it's still in your blood, he/she is still family. boy, i am glad that i still have ze bestest people around me.
my family, my love, my friends.

it's 2009. if there's a need to change, take a breather, move forward, take the risks, stride.
eventually, you'll find yourself a better place.

xoxo.

12:03 - Thursday, Jan. 01, 2009

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Time (really) flies.

Oh, what the heck. Happy New Year everyone! :)
Have fun counting down.

00:30 - Wednesday, Dec. 31, 2008

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.engaged.

Nurul Ashikin

.bestfriends with the sister (we make way for the younger one to go first).

.bestfriends + bestfriends

(P/S: I'll update more soon.)

23:29 - Sunday, Dec. 28, 2008

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i feel like *^$&%.
my 500 bucks gone just like that frm my bank account.
like wth.
as quoted by Hidhir, "I don't know why you have to go thru such things".
Yah. Tell me about it.
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

11:35 - Thursday, Dec. 25, 2008

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forbidden love

it has been a while since i was engrossed with a book.
i now understand the hype about it.
i think secretly, everyone wants to be a part of forbidden love.
for years everyone were intrigue with the love between capulet and montague (not so much for me actually).
modern day would probably be between edward cullen and bella swan.
i've been wanting to get the book when i first caught the author's interview with ellen. ellen was interviewing her about her already millions-sold series and the upcoming movie.
of course, i only managed to capture the movie first before the book.
but now i've got my hands on the second book, New Moon. I can't wait to read Eclipse and Breaking Dawn even though i already know how the story will end. (I don't remember the last time i bought a book and i was just fortunate to receive vouchers for xmas frm one of the parents.)
so now i'm slowly reading New Moon even though i'm already reading more than half of it.

Anyway, thanks to Nina i feel like painting my room red. (well i know i just painted mine but the black wall doesnt give me that effect i wanted.) Well that depends on my mood though.
Other than that, all is well. My tummy is better but more sensitive now. No spicy food for me in the mean time. Bluegh.

22:23 - Tuesday, Dec. 23, 2008

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for that moment, the feelings were surreal.
i was in awed and (still) in disbelief.
i dunno if it was real or not.
but you made me fell again.

12:30 - Sunday, Dec. 21, 2008

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Cheers to happy times.
Honestly, if this doesn't get better I rather be send off to A&E then endure it for another day.

19:08 - Wednesday, Dec. 17, 2008

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monkey see, monkey do

if you can't hold your drink or be in control of yourself when you're drunk, be a RESPONSIBLE adult!
stop when you have enough! and know your limits. honestly, getting wasted even before the party started is degrading.

it's just too bad that being the only one sober there i have to ensure (sort of) that everyone is alright. but at the end of the day, i felt like #*^$& because i wasted time going there only bcos i was trying to be a good samaritan no less. the only time i remembered being happy on zoukout was taking countless pictures with the known & unknown and the part when yana & the guy whose name starts w F (i cant remember his name) sang "no woman no cry" to cheer me up.

okay enough of zoukout.

on a happier note, i love "Twilight" and i fell in love with a vampire again (the last time was one when i watched another vampire story) . you know the irony of it? vampire is supposed to be the deadliest predator around but why do they always ended up being the romantic ones. why?

argh. i can't believe that i started my holidays with a very bad gastric. my mum almost wanted to send me to A&E yesterday because since sunday i havent been sleeping well. but anyway, i forced myself out to go to the zoo. thank you to my aunt & uncle for the treat & Ben & Jerry's!

14:16 - Sunday, Dec. 16, 2008

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morning glory

i am hardly awake in the morning on a saturday. usually, it's probably ard 11 or afternoon. i know! pemalas kan? but i figure out saturday is the day for me to catch on my sleep after 5-days of working. but just now, i was up at 8.30a.m & i went le sigh.

i had a good week. fulfilling plus my very first ptm with the parents went all smoothly. honestly i cant wait for the short week next week. 4 days of sch & a celebration on thurs & then holiday, holiday, holiday! i've no plans at all for the dec holiday and it looks like the bkk trip in march would be cancel as well.

so anyway, a month left and i've decided to get a present for myself. a well-deserved bday treat. i'm still tossing the ideas.
we'll see how it goes. hope all is well especially at this time when the financial crisis is hitting some of us.

and oh, thankfully i asked liyana to get me a dress from bali. so now i don't have to think about what to wear for zoukout. i only need to find the flower clip. hahhah. semangat seh.

09:47 - Saturday, Dec. 06, 2008

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.trigger happy.

"he looks like what you want to look,
he fucks like you want to fuck".

"when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade. the best one".

P.S: 8 more days! Uber excited!!

00:54 - Wednesday, Dec. 03, 2008

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first order of cupcakes

I was pretty sceptical when Mas(my colleague) approached me if i could help her out with the cupcakes.
I've never made cupcakes with icing before and technically my cupcakes are made from the brownies recipe. (Well one day, i decided to put the brownie mixture in those cups thus voila! And I've received positive remarks on it ever since.)
I decided to help her out this time. And tada...here's the outcome.

( ++ )

21:35 - Saturday, Nov. 29, 2008

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Palm-Reading

I had an interesting conversation with the Aunty at work today. She's the school's cleaner btw.
It all started when I overheard her conversation with my colleagues about some palm-reading stuffs. According to my colleagues, what she said was true so I interrupted them & told the Aunty to read my palm.

Aunty: "Haiya..you ah I cannot say now"
Me:: "Huh..why? Nvm Aunty just tell me, i don't mind."
A: "You go do your work lah later never finish."
M: "Hmm, Aunty my dad said that I'll have lots of guys".
A: "What guys?"
M: "boys!"
A: "Noo..you lot of boys bcos they run away."
M: "Why eh?"
A: "Bcos you like to talk back and loud". (with all her gestures)
M: "Aunty, how do you know!"
A: "I know one lah."

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It's scary but true enough. She said I have a strong character which I strongly defend it as I'm a very determined person. And then I asked her how's my 2009 gonna be like. After asking for my birthday, she gave me a thumbs up and said, it's gonna be a good year for me and I'll find a very good boy next year. -_- Hurhur. I should have ask her where I could find that 'very good boy'. She also told me that I need to control my temper and the talking part. She mentioned a lot of stuffs about me that kinda make sense. It's freaky that someone who isn't close or even related to you knows about how your life is like.

I shared this with my mum and she believed that even if the Aunty is accurate about what she said, I shouldn't take it seriously and she's only generalising it. Well I can only say if my 2009 is gonna be a good year, then great. But i'm pretty sure to get that, i have to overcome obstacles here & there.

23:13 - Wednesday, Nov. 26, 2008

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finally widened up my blog space so that i could post bigger pictures the next time.
but the picture looks retarded. but i love the layout. so bear with that retarded picture.

when i returned to work on fri after a day mc, my team mates was like "why you came back?".
because i miss work. and i didnt want to be alone at home.
but then today, i don't feel like going to work tomorrow.
maybe cos 40+ hours straight at home has made me one lazy girl. dasar pemalas.
well, i can't wait for my 3 weeks break.
you know the agony of it.
it feels like a long time to finally have that break.
but when the weeks come, it'll pass by quickly then expected.
bloody.
obviously, i'm not in a good mood.
*roar*

but anyway, i spent my saturday watching (one of the best) Malay movie, Sepi.
It's basically about 3 stories with the same theme in common, loneliness.
But what you should know how each character is connected in one way or another.
Go watch it! They have it in youtube.

"You'll love the story line, the cast, the dreamy scenery, the soundtrack and you'll definitely love the director for doing such a good job..." - SG.Yahoo.Movies' Review

22:53 - Sunday, Nov. 23, 2008

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too much hates.

i hate it when i fall sick.
i hate it when there's phlegm in my throat, nose.
i hate it when my nose starts peeling off & have the kerak2.
i hate it. simply hate it.

i hate it when i'm sick, my mum isn't around. she left for genting!!
and i hate having to eat porridge. instant one.
damn. i just hate it.

18:40 - Thursday, Nov. 20, 2008

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.thrilled over nothing.

i always find myself having to blog so many things in my head but whenever i'm at this page, the whole idea is just gone. poof! this time round i know i have lots of things to say so i will try to jot as much things as i can.

I'm quite relief that's it finally the weekend. the whole week was pretty hectic.
portfolios which is finally over! '09 lesson plans for the pre-k. photo-taking (which eventually turned my class into a whole circus. mind you, 24 2-years old kids are not easy!) and i looked like a mad woman in the picture with my hair & i was carrying a crying child while trying to smile at the same time. but he is really cute i tell you!

next up is the PTC, preparations for the new term, saying good-bye to some of the kids who's moving up and then finally the long-awaited break i've been looking forward to. i guess my bro kinda felt it when he saw me burning the midnight oil the other day and he said, "kesian eh teacher plan penat2 pas tu budak2 tk pay attention" ("what a pity the teachers planned so hard and the kids don't pay attention to them"). i bet he's referring to himself. so yeah, just 4 more weeks to go. let's just endure it.

the other day my mum was asking me about my plans for the degree programme. i told her about the situations and the chances of me taking it next year is very slim. of course, there are many other schools to choose. but i didnt' just want to randomly pick a school just because it's offering bachelor in ech. i rather do one that covers the modules which would apply more to the teaching methodology and not just general ech. so i might just put that on hold until i get the news from the school.

so anyway, my mum just told me she finally broke the news to my grandma about our decision to have a car. the fact that i was taking over from my uncle and stuffs like that. honestly, i'm not really excited about it. maybe because it isn't the car that i really want and the colour of it isnt my favourite (hahaha). but i guess taking into considerations about convenience and that we can save a little when we get a new car, we decided to just grab the chance. of course, my grandma is worried. and i am too. but we'll see how this goes.

of course, i would love to get my hands on this one.

Or perhaps this one.

Well this one i know never but at least i got a feel of being in it. well i followed one of the parents to recky places for the fieldtrip.

But i guess for now, i just settle for this one.

(P/S: So Nurul, did you go for the dinner with Adam Scott? No, right. It better be not kan Fai?)

16:37 - Saturday, Nov. 15, 2008

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.busy in the weeks to come.

i have tons of things to do. but i just need to get my mind off the workloads. my mum said i can't deal with stress. probably she's right.

21:13 - Tuesday, 11 Nov, 2008

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i wanted to cry for my mum. i think the reason she's travelling a lot is to cover up her loneliness.
and well, when we had our exchange of furore the other time, i ended up telling her how i really felt all this while.

00:44 - Sunday, Nov. 09, 2008

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of SADE,migraine,and sleeping late

I told myself to stay away from Sade(Sah-day) 'cos i suspected it's been giving me the migraine.
Failed miserably.
Yes. I decided to call my lappy, Sade.
And say Hi to Zara (my T-70 of course!).
And did I tell you i've been sleeping past 2am lately?
Why?

My first attempt of (tasting) Paella.

And apparently, this one is Shrimp Chocolate (I dunno if it has a name but yah that brown thing is Choc.). Ali made them.

15:36 - Saturday, Nov. 08, 2008

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.friends or foe?.

I had a conversation with my mum the other day.I was telling her about some trivial matters between 3 "bestfriends" which had cost them their friendship. Honestly, I've past that stage whereby "I don't want tobe friend with so & so because of this & that" or "She's my friend, how could she do this & that". U get it? So, I'm glad that I have friends like Fai, Nurul, Kak Lin, Mars, Amy. I know I can count on them anytime & that we are gonna be with each other no matter what. I'm not single-ing out anybody but these people are my "bestfriends" among the many friendships I have with others. :) With Ms Fai, last night. What a day it was! We were so desperate to look for Sakae Sushi in town(okay, I was the one who was craving for sushi!) that we ended up taking the wrong bus to PS(cos we were so confident that all buses along Orchard Road passed by PS). Thankfully, we alighted near Park Mall (which took us 10 mins to reach there cos we decided to take pictures along the street). After Sushi, headed to Clarke Quay where some people paraded w their Halloween costumes. Giving directions to Newton for a lonely guy from Amsterdam who have a very lingering smell on him (Fai, my mum said he was actually expecting us to accompany him with the way he asked!). He, of course, interrupted our conversations (ranging from talking abt poly's life, the number of guys we dated*roll eyes to nurul* and plans for Dec). To conclude, I had a lovely night with my gf. And of course, it was good to finally bumped into Amy. We had so many things to talk about for the fact that we've not met for a year. I miss that girl! Oh well, it's the weekend. Happy Weekend, y'all! ;)

17:13 - Saturday, 01. Nov, 2008

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.stay at home is not fun.

I've just wasted the entire afternoon (4 hrs) doing nothing on the internet!
I want to go back to work!!!!
(P/S: i still need to do the video & i'm just delaying the whole process!)

14:35 - Wednesday, Oct. 29, 2008

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Novita's Wedding @ Grand Hyatt.
I am having issues with my arms.
I need to lose the fats from there. lol..

I'm having a long break which honestly, i could have gone for a short trip to somewhere. Sat,Sun,Mon,Tues,Weds. Yah, 5 freaking days!
Anyway, 2008 is about to end. Cant it go any faster?? I'm turning 23 (sound so awful if i try to say it) in mths time & there are still things which I've yet to do. I have already listed things to do before I turned 25 (I just wanna make sure that I dont waste my youth!). I told mum I wanna get married in 4 yrs time only 'cos I don't wanna have a huge gap with my children (I know! I think that far!) I mean if ever I have a child, I don't wanna be in my 40s & my child is still in primary sch? Hurhur. Question is of cos, who's gonna be the spouse kan? With flaring temper & occasional moodswings, I'm chasing away the potential ones (but no one is perfect, whether you can accept the person for who he/she is or give & take, that's another issue you need to deal with). I ever heard of someone saying this, "that the enviroment you grew up in affect how you perceive things in life".

Okay, you know what? I lost track of what I wanted to write about. So basically, I still have my Wednesday unplanned. I might just drop by Wing Tai to check out the sales they are having for Dorothy Perkins,Warehouse,Topshop. I'm bringing the kids out to watch HSM later! Haha..

I took this shot last night. Faz(NP) was chatting w me & he thought I was kissing the pillow. I don't know where he got that idea. Crazy fella! But someone tell me it doesn't look like it!

(P/S: The amount I spent for that accident could have been used to get my COACH! OUch!)

12:56 - Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2008

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Number of times I attempted to blog = 5.
I'm sick of getting sick. I just want to sleep all day. (But I seem to be fine when I'm at work!)
So many things to say, but so little time.
Anyway, Zoukout is coming! Perfect timing during school holiday.
I'm being random. More updates soon.

21:51 - Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2008

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just one of those days

why do we (us, women) always make ourselves seem vulnerable?
why do tears easily roll down our cheek?

23:46 - Monday, Oct. 13, 2008

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of having migraine & what not.

If not for the migraine, I probably make my way out to Amy's open house.
Cos honestly, besides watching DVD, internet & sleeping, I don't know what else to do at home.
Mum & bro aren't around. Mum is busy with the Hari Raya gathering which is still ongoing & obviously because I live nearby the CC I can still hear them sing the Raya songs. (I think I have enough of listening to the songs.)

I wanted to upload the Hari Raya pictures. But my so-called "Techie Uncle" (dad's side) decided to be oh-so-smart and made a DVD copy instead. I don't want to just view them, I want the pictures!! And I'm not that close to him so whatever.

Lesson learnt, don't rely on others' camera.

Oh, I need to update this. I'm quite impressed with my brother. His cerpen (malay short-story) is going to be published in a book along with the other winners. Even I don't get to achieve that. As his sister (ahem), I'm so proud of him. Hahahah. Well Nurul, can you believe that's Azizan? Yes, that same boy who was sleeping whenever you crashed my place during our clubbing days.

17:31 - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2008

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'08 Raya

A quick update.
Hari Raya was pretty much exciting.
A new-look room (yes, i've got my black wall!). Driving and collided into someone else's car on the eve of raya (vision-impaired cos it was raining cat & dog & her car is black, nw i know why mum doesn't want me to have a black car). Having to part with hundreds of moolah for the private settlement *sobsob*. Not getting anymore collection (boohoo!). Gastronomic adventure at every houses we went. And it's only been 6 days of raya & it's back to school. What an adventure!
Hahahah. Ouh yah, I believe God was testing me on the eve of raya. He knows I never drove at night during practical on a heavy rain. Whatever people is saying, it only gives me the drive to do it better on the road in the future. And with a 4-wheel in hand soon, I promise to check my blindspot next time. :p

(No LJ-cut this time)

Boo!

As promised, my first Raya dish.

With our grandma! Love.love. (Okay, Nina & Nurul we really missed you on the first day!)

My annoying brother!

Mummy!!

Self-Timer Shot!

And that is only just a few of us, ladies. (: (The dad's side is huge!!)

Whenever I'm at aunt's place, she'd be awake! Ahhhh!! I want to kidnap her!! Ninaaaa!!

That's it. I'm too lazy to update the rest. And of course, I have to wait for the pictures from that huuugeee DSLR. What's a T70 compared to that, man!

20:57 - Monday, Oct. 6, 2008

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Salam Lebaran

I've been dyiyyyiiiiiinnnnng to update.
At this point I wish I have more than 24 hours a day. Yeah right.
Not too late kan?

More pictures soon. Promise.

23:40 - Sunday, Oct. 5, 2008

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Ken Lee vs Numb

Hilarious kan?

23:28 - Saturday, Sept. 20, 2008

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My colleague and i were doing prep work for the kids when we started talking about Hari Raya.
We're both looking forward to it especially when it comes to the gastronomic adventure.
I can't wait to eat my aunt sambal kacang(peanut gravy) which she usually mixes it with bits of chicken. And then I'll mixed it together with a lil bit of kuah lodeh (some vege gravy), sambal udang (prawn), serondeng (erm, stg like coconut grated), fried chicken, sambal goreng & of course my grandma's ketupat. Yes everything in a plate. (I shall take a picture of it when the day comes.) I swear it's very sinful but yummy-licious!!!
And I was telling my colleague how I never fancy eating kuih during visiting but I only search for the kerepek (tapioca snack) or peanuts(pistachios especially!). "Okay, then I shall hide it from you!". Nabei!

12 more days to go! Woohoooo!!
It's time to get fat & gain all the weight I lost.
Dang!

17:04 - Thursday, Sept. 18, 2008

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.tired.

i'm tired.
and sick with cough & flu. surprisingly i've not taken any mc for the past 3 months. although sometimes i'm half dead at work and wish the kids would stay away from me.
everyday after the kids left, i'm only looking forward to go home and sleep.
so unproductive in this fasting month.
good thing is, my room is doing good progress (paint job this weekend, yaay!). :D
i love, love my baju kurung. and mum insist on getting me another one (i told her not to waste money & give it to me so i can get myself new clothes not for raya but failed).
i'm intending to straighten/extend my hair and dye it black. but i just did my highlight last month so dye-ing hair is probably not. so we'll see.
i need to get myself a new phone 'cos the current one has lots of buttons malfunction and the reception is very bad. so there, i have excuses.
the last thing is, i'll burst out the news once it's confirmed. not sure too be happy or not. it's like u've got what u wanted but it's not the same one u wanted. get it?

i'm being random.
good night world!

22:41 - Monday, Sept. 15, 2008

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.nura.salsabilah.

Hello world, say HI to Nura Salsabilah (i deserved credit for asking my aunt to name her Nura & i stole this picture frm Ina, haha)!
I want to kidnap her.

She's effing tiny & cute!!
But can u imagine, how far apart we are.
22 years. Ahh, imagine what the future would be like.
But she's still cute!

20:42 - Tuesday, Sept. 09, 2008

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.Spot Me.

Captured!! I was sober throughout the night.
(Actually, the purpose of this entry is just to show you my outfit for the night. Thanks Kak Lin!)

00.53 - Wednesday, Sept. 03, 2008

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.Perks.

I'm a happy camper!!!
And so, it was only this year that I really celebrated Teacher's Day/Teacher's Appreciation Day/whatever they called it. We had an early celebration on Thurs at school & I received so many cards & gifts. They are freakin generous! CK Euphoria Blossom perfume, super-stylish eco-bag w a card that says "P.S. Keep the eco-bag in your handbag for when you go shopping - no need to take plastic bags!!" (cute kan! Of course the mum wrote it lah.), a sealed card w 'valuables' in it, body-shop hampers, lotsa chocs & the likes. Thank God no flowers cos I probably throw it away. My colleague was saying, "Oh you receive more for Christmas!" See, they are so GENEROUS!

And anyway, Friday was off day for me but of course I had to prep myself for the D&D @ British Club. I heard I won the lucky draw prize but where is it eh? (Shit,went to the ladies at the wrong time!) Lucky to that girl who won the $500 Tangs voucher, just in time for Hari Raya. The D&D was of course fun!! But they should look into having more varieties for the food next year. So like they said, "Tonight you see the other side of the teachers!" Couldn't agree more.

Speaking of Teacher's Day, I don't know about you guys but whichever school I'm in, I tend to be more attached to kids who are the challenging ones (hyper, ADHD type or the ones who bites & pushes in sch). Perhaps they are more adorable than the rest or perhaps it's that sense of satisfaction that you get when they eventually behave much better. Or perhaps, I just love to be challenge. Hahah. I'm happy to be an educator and honestly, seeing this kids really make my day.

So anyway, fasting month is here! And yes, mum has bought my baju kurung. Freaking expensive can!!! Apparently it's the only piece. Yeah right. But that only means I don't have to sibuk-sibuk look for one so thanks mum!! :) Happy Fasting!

P.S. I have trouble opening up my photobucket so I can't post up the pictures yet. Will post them up soon. :)

xoxo

23:21 - Sunday, Aug. 31, 2008

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.when you lost it.

I was reading through my past entries in this blog.
I realised I didn't write much of him in here. But when I did, I sound so happy & loved.
As I read those entries, I realised that I've always been the hard one in the r'ship.
There were so many times when I mentioned, "if he's gone I'm gonna regret it for sure".
I've learned so much through this relationship.
And I only wish we were given another chance to prove that our love stands.
But I guess we're too afraid of getting hurt again.
My advice to those in a relationship, treasure those moments while you have it.
What if tomorrow never comes?

Sometimes, it's hard for me to accept that we're now just friends.
Things are different now.

19:51 - Saturday, Aug. 23, 2008

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.good news.

I felt like I just woke up from a very bad nightmare.
Right after having an early dinner with mum, I was too shag that I went straight to sleep.
And gosh, the next moment when I woke up it was already close to 1 a.m.
You know that kinda feeling when you get when you woke up, notice everyone is not at home and it's already in the wee hours, you start panicking and ask "Where's everybody?"
Well yeah, I felt that way. And I couldn't find my phone to call mum. Ahh found it right underneath the blankie. So yeah after talking to her then I realised I fell asleep 7-ish. So that means I slept for more than 5 hours and looking at the timing now, I probably stay awake for the next few hours.

Anyway, yesterday (22.08.08) was the moment I've been waiting for.

I PASSED MY TP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woohoooo!!! I was so nervous the moment the tester sat besides me and he really sound so serious with his big aviator(really that's what he wore). A few times I caught him saying, "I say move forward 2 times...you must be more alert". But nonetheless when he seemed calm pointing the mistake I made, I was quite confident actually. 8 points and (yaay!) passed!

I think those close to me would know that I've long awaited for this day. It took me 4 years (with a 2-yr hiatus) to finally earn it since the first time I took my BTT at 18.

01:05 - Saturday, Aug. 23, 2008

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.worth.

Well hello, next week is the end of term!
And that means I've been in the company for a good 2 months.
But with the end of term around the corner, that also means I've work to finish up.
Video editting, holiday programme & 3 wks of lesson plans for Term 4, Presentation for Parents, prep-work.
Although I was only given the instruction last week, I'm not complaining.
'Cos I enjoy what I'm doing now. Really.
And I know the work is all worth it 'cos Teacher's Day Celebration & D&D is next week too!
Yaay!

Actually, I feel a little weird that I'm embracing this moment. We're talking about work here!

22:17 - Thursday, Aug. 21, 2008

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.PrivateLetter.

I wanted to cry right now. 7 days ago would have been our 2nd Anniversary.
If only...
Sometimes when you let your ego rules you, it's gonna be a disaster.
And this is what happened to us.
If only you realised what you did that day.
If only you follow your heart and look deep inside.
If only you realise that our love is still strong for one another.
Look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't love me.
It hurts me that you have to let go of something special.
It hurts me that you give up on us when we could have work things out.
It hurts me that you choose the easy way out when you know we could have get it right.
I don't know if you're the one for me.
But all I know, you're so special to me. Someone whom I wanna be with for the rest of my life.
No doubts we had our fights and bickerings.
But didn't you realised that at the end of the day we need each other.
When you make love to me, was it just for satisfaction or was it really we were making love?
I only know that I feel secured, trusted and love when we did it.
And I wish to do more of that with you so that I can feel all that.
I wish that one day you'll open up your eyes and realised that you made that mistake.
I wish that one day we'll be together as one.
But perhaps, perhaps, perhaps
I was wrong.

20:30 - Wednesday, Aug. 20, 2008

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.myob.

Sometimes, i only hope that people would stop assuming.
Unless you've been in the same position as i am or put yourself in my shoe,
Then maybe (just maybe) you would understand the whole story.
Otherwise,
just shut up or keep those thoughts to yourself.

Now, let's get on with our lives.

20:25 - Tuesday, Aug. 19, 2008

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.what's for lunch?.

Guess what I made today?

Yummy-licious!

16:29 - Sunday, Aug. 17, 2008

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Just 2 hours ago, mum left town for her short getaway again. She is always out of town every other month. Usually I would miss her.
Like just now, I cried when she left. 'Cos it only means I'll be sleeping alone tonight. Add on to the fact, some things happened in school just now that kinda affect my morale now.

I'm a mummy's girl afterall.

And then I miss my girls.

P/S: It annoyed me when people tried to squeeze into my private life.
And what's more getting unnecessary people involved.
Just so you know, I'm fine. Thank you but I certainly don't need you.

I don't know why I'm always having a hard time uploading the pics. Thus, the pictures are overdued.
But heck, I still wanna put it up.

So, National Day itself was spent at Marina Bay! I had a jolly good time with mum, cuzzie and her friends. Semangat kebabian lah tu konon.

I know everyone elses captured this pic.
Style lah tu!

Rain or shine, show must go on!!

This year's firework was just okay. Nothing too fancy.

And then off we went to Fairmont Hotel! Beautiful skyline view!
See...

And darling, I'm sure you had lotsa fun on your b'day! Happy 23rd! And yeah, I know my turn will come. So old liao!

21:47 - Friday, Aug. 15, 2008

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.revamping.

each time i browse through ourbedroomsI'm so inspired to revamp my room.
I really need to start on painting the bedroom walls and clear the bloody junks!
And looks like I probably do that on the Sep holidays. Hoorah!

ouh yah. pixies will be up soon.

22:51 - Thursday, Aug. 14, 2008

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I ended up with a pair of shoes just now. And somehow, guilt and regret overwhelmed me.
See, what impulse buying did to you. Arghh!
Anyway, I'm still looking for THE dress. I have something in mind and die-die I want to get it. BUT I don't know where to find it!
I need a saviour. Come now!!

So yesterday, I had dinner at...

POPEYE!

Somehow, it wasn't as nice.
And I was full only after 3 bites?

We didn't even finish this.

The very smart-talkative-lil-girl. Try talking to her and see how long you can entertain her.

My annoying brother.

And US, minus the boys. (It seemed I'm the tallest here! Finally! LOL)

And it was a GOOD week. :)

20:37 - Monday, Aug. 04, 2008

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.Monday Morning 5:19 - Rialto.

I chanced upon them through Hidhir. The song is stuck in my head. Probably the beat. An ol' song from them. But last time I heard, they've disbanded.

02:10 - Sunday, Aug. 03, 2008

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.random muse.

the whole week was a testing period for me.
i was at my worse initially. but now i feel alright.
someone once said to me, change is constant.
at that moment, i didn't like it when she said that to me.
but now i hear myself telling it to others.
i think it is just us, our nature human being, which doesn't seem to like changes. especially drastic ones.
we seemed to be sceptical or negative about it.
but as we walk through it only then we realise it is only for the better.
i've learned to accept changes in my life. for the good, the better or the worse.

eventually, we'll learn to accept it.
and life goes on as usual.

13:52 - Saturday, Aug. 02, 2008

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i'll never walk alone

we talked,strolled and chilled out at orchard road in the wee hours.
we sat down and continued talking.
it seems a little awkward.
but i like it much better this way.

oh well, it wasn't such a bad thing afterall.

13:38 - Saturday, Aug. 02, 2008

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.stuck.

"What makes you think he's the one?"
"Cos he's just different...unlike those guys I've met."

And then I started crying.

I'm such a wimp!

17:42 - Wednesday, Jul. 30, 2008

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We lost it.

Public entries won't be up anytime soon.

20:50 - Saturday, Jul. 26, 2008

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.they can never take what's yesterday.

"I just can’t believe you’re gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side
When we have so much in store tell me what it is I’m reaching for
When we’re through building memories I’ll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart"

-Yesterday, Leona Lewis

Deep down inside,
I know I miss him so much.
As much as I tried to put a brave front,
it's just a facade.
'Cos reality is I'm breaking down inside.
sob.

"I can't imagine life without you. Cos there's just so many things to remind me of you."

11:49 - Saturday, Jul. 26, 2008

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.when the world smiles upon u.

Life has been pretty good of late.
My portfolios are almost done except for those kids who are away for Summer holiday.
My work is pretty much on track. Still need to figure out the area of responsibilities though. Sensory equipment. Gahh!

By the way, I lovelove my new gadget. Thanks Mum! :) Hugs.

Nooorroool, i miss you leh. When to meet? And Kak Lin!!! Haven't met you for a lonnngg time. Probably soon. Heh.

(Feels like as if we just celebrated Fai's B'day. And it's one of us birthday next mth again.)

Anyway, I went for the BSc in ECE preview session last Friday with Fai. We are hoping that they would have another cohort next year so that we could enrol for the degree programme. Yep! I've decided with encouragement from some people. It's for my own good of course. Let's pray hard okay Fai?

I have to replenish my make-up stocks next mth. Compact powder, mascara, eye-liners and yeah perhaps some eye-shadows? Need to get a dress for the Teacher's Day D&D and a new bag, big enough to stuff my uniform and lunch pack. :) Speaking of which, you will really save a lot bringing your own lunch. Try lah for a month.

This was last week. Forgive my boncet-ness. Hah.

I hate fighting against myself.

23:24 - Sunday, Jul. 20, 2008

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120708-130708

My weekend was burned due to the banquet on Saturday and the cat show the very next morning.
I swear my eye bags are getting worse for the lack of sleep.
But still I had fun wearing the cheongsam, camwhoring at the hotel room's toilet and watching The Other Boleyn Girl in between managing the slides.
It feels like I'm one of their members ever since I took the role of managing the slides 4 years ago. Quoted by Janice, "Aren't you like the official PowerPoint-ers?" But of course that means I sat a corner with the rosettes watching others eating while I managed the slides & being chuck one corner by yourself. Worth it? I would say so. 'Cos busu & paksu would definitely give a treat to me. :D

I'm glad we made up. To be called selfish is hurtful okay. Even if we make jokes about it. (*ehem ehem to Fai*) Cos it's such a negative word.
But then again, we're having a date this weekend hopefully. Can't wait!!!

And I'm sooooo excited. My lappie comes tomorrow!!! WEeeeee.

I'll upload my pictures soon.

20:12 - Tuesday, Jul. 15, 2008

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Reading blogs keeps me updated with the world.
So keep on blogging.

At the moment,
i'm at a still life.

Period.

10:54 - Sunday, Jul. 13, 2008

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fuck

That bloody acronym.
PMS, is it?
It sucks when you tried everything but ended up failing.

I did.
Shit!

09:30 - Sunday, Jul. 13, 2008

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Wah. I got my first pay cheque from my workplace!
Hahaha. A few hundreds. That's a lot for 6 days of work!
That's better than having to wait, right?

14:01 - Monday, Jun. 30, 2008

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i'm doing fine at the new place.
i shall update more once i get my new lappy!
yaay!

16:52 - Thursday, Jun. 26, 2008

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.i've nothing to say actually.

Today marks the start of waking up late, 7 days of well-deserved rest & 2 days more to KL.
How interesting! And once I'm back I'll be freaking broke until the GOV gives me the moolah.
Yesterday was Mama's birthday and I had so much fun!! I'll put up the pics soon.

I'm sure those who've seen me noticed that I've gained weight to be exact 5kg over the past few months but i'm so determined to lose it in 4 mths.
I've had weight issues lately. It's like a yo-yo. Give me time.

Until then,
Happy Holidays people!

12:11 - Sunday, Jun. 15, 2008

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the little things that he did

Hidhir is very good at working his way through my heart.
He's not someone who gives surprises or buys gifts often.
But when he does it, he does it best.

2 days of not talking to each other.
and I received a watch from him.
The one that I've been eyeing.
Weeeeeeeee!!

See, i'm easily pleased. Haha.

And yah, I failed my TP. I striked the curb for the first time. Badly traumatised by a senior tester. Chet! Ask him to shut up.

11:24 - Saturday, Jun. 14, 2008

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The other random musing..

i dunno if anyone knows this,
i'm not someone who likes to be ordered around.
and i'm pretty sure many share the same sentiment.
but then again, it depends on how you approach me to do things.
if you play nice, i can't say NO to it.

work out your attitude please or many would run away.

11:45 - Tuesday, Jun. 10, 2008

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.For every beginning, there's an ending.

Ignore my last entry.
I was just mad at that point. Add on to my POST-menses.
And yeah, it's kinda sucky having to spend few hours looking for a good place to go & when u finally got it, the plan backfired.
Like your effort just went down the drain. Hahah. A lil bit exaggerating. But yeah you get what I mean lah hor.

So, I'm not putting hope for the next thing planned. I mean you might never know what's gonna crop up at the last minute.
When everything is confirm, then I'll get excited again. Probably at the last hour. Ahah.

I'm left with another 11 days at KG. A week of break & then HELLO to a whole new environment. I'm not sure what to expect. One thing for sure, is going back to planning lessons. And I've not done that for more than a year. Well I hope everything's gonna be alright. It's a good thing to know that my future employer offers sponsorship to further up my study which of course comes with a bond. If the place is right, I might consider that.

Ouh. And I'm super duper gonna miss this boy.

"Ian, I won't be around in 3 weeks time."
"Why..why? Where you going?"
"I'm going to another place.."
"Why?"
....

"Children, next week is my last day with you. I'm gonna miss all of you"
*softly* "Why...I'm gonna miss you too."

At that point, I was gonna cry when he said that.

And I was told by his grandma that he said it all the time at home. How sweet.

10:02 - Tuesday, Jun. 03, 2008

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I want my goddamnfucking getaway!
Yes. I'm mad, frustrated, upset, disappointed.
.Sigh.
Like that would change a thing.

11:30 - Friday, May. 30, 2008

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Hello Goodbye

15 months ago, I started working at KG & I was so excited about having my first job.
It has been both good & bad experience for me.
Sadly upon leaving in less than a month time I feel as though it's gonna end bitterly.
Sigh. You can never please everyone.
I'm definitely gonna miss my KG kids especially the favourite ones. Oh well, life has to move on right?
I figure out my goals won't be achieved if I stay in this job. So yeahh..

Moving on, I'm looking forward to meet the kids at another place. I've seen them & they are superbly cute!
The best part is I'm working 5-days week & from 8am-3pm. WooooHooooooo!!!
Finally, I have my Sat & Sun off!! Seriously, it's pretty tiring working on the weekends. 3 more weeks and I can have my morning Sat & Sun. Big breakfast here I come!!!!

Enough about work.
I miss my boyfriend & darlings.
Hidhir..I love you.
FaiFai & Nooroool. Miss you. Muacks.
Mum is not in town again. 18th holes? Hahaha.
And gosh, my TP is less than a month which I'm 50-50 about.
"Eh, lu bawak mesti slow ah. Lu punya safety mesti jaga..."
Doesn't matter lah. As long as I get it before October, that's good enough.

'Til then.

14:32 - Saturday, May. 24, 2008

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An Open Letter

Dear You (I'm so sorry I can't comment on your blog),

Change is constant.

We can't change to be someone that others want us to be. But of course with that said, it does not necessarily mean "this is how i am, accept it". That is equivalent to living in your own world.
Most important is we tried to change to be someone better. And that takes effort. If others fail to see that, it is only because they do not seek to understand you.

It's never good to keep all this by yourself 'cos it's only killing you softly. Everyone has their own set of problems & it's how you deal with it. Either you smile & be optimist or you frown & die in your own sorrow. For now, you just need to open yourself up to others & leave the negative vibes behind. Whatever happen has a reason.

It's just a challenge from God 'cos he knows you're able to get thru it. Trust me.

*Your walking dictionary*

17:29 - Thursday, May. 22, 2008

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Spoiler Alert!

My David Cook won!!!!!!!

WoooohhOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! I never go crazy about an Idol before.

More wet dreams in the nights to come. Haha.

10:30 - Thursday, May. 22, 2008

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Verses of Love

If I'm right, I teared 5 times watching this movie.
Considering the fact, we chose it at the last minute,
it's definitely worth-watching!
I wouldn't mind watching it all over again.
Kudos to the ladies in the movie. Not Fahri.

17:14 - Tuesday, May. 20, 2008

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Let's GO!

Let's go Bintan!!

11:07 - Tuesday, May. 17, 2008

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Mother's Day 08

MasterMind (Nina, myself and not forgetting..)

Anur (we were so busy poking the food through the skewers as instructed by our..}

Master Chef (we had our Lesson 101 - How to BBQ it right)

Ibu (my aunty) who was making sure we did not forget the corn and potatoes

My Atuk!

I always managed to capture her silly moments

This was the part when my mum was actually singing the "Ibu..ibu engkaulah ratu hati ku" song

Our Mummies

She's turning 6 this year..and she always cracked me up with her antics
(she's no longer gonna be the last grandchild of Patimah & Yusoff soon)

It was fun!

10:56 - Tuesday, May. 13, 2008

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.relationship woes.

sometimes i just don't understand.
how could HE be the one that made me cry and 10 mins later made me feel love all over again.
i swear i'm gonna curse and swear if this isn't worth the fight.

you know sometimes i wonder how marriage gonna work for me.
see, that's why i'm not ready.

09:20 - Tuesday, May. 13, 2008

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.at the end the month.

i realised it's normal to have PMS every month.
but mine came at the end of it. POST-mense.
i feel shitty.
i hate the psycho-effect.

16:50 - Tuesday, Apr. 29, 2008

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OD

Every now and then, my head will be spinning around. And to ease it, I pop a pill.

What's up man.

16:46 - Tuesday, Apr. 29, 2008

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when i met my love

"It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight"

- Bubbly, Colbie Caillat

12:38 - Thursday, Apr. 17, 2008

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It's funny what a letter can do

I didn't realise ever since the letter was out, my mood has dramatically changed.

Until, "wah you are making it obvious..can u stop singing even if it makes u happy?"

I'm certainly on the good side!
Boy, i'm glad!

11:41 - Wednesday, Apr. 16, 2008

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And so...

I've made the decision. It's for my own good. At this point, if they ain't listening then i shall take my bow.
Every single mth of complaints, don't you think i should have thought about it sooner.
Well anyway, I hope they respect my decision. I'm not irrational.
Maybe that word shouldn't have been used on me. Probably they should have wonder why this decision was made. I'm pretty sure you guys would know why.

So, I haven't been updating much simply because there really isn't anything for me to tell. I'm just living my life as it is. Boring I know! And sometimes, this whole cycle is making me sick. Other than my wednesday ladies night (ouh yah, that hasn't been happening for almost a year!), nothing else is significant. Even that wednesday. Although I'm very glad for the companions that night. :)

Hidhir and myself. 2 years of knowing each other, we did reach a point of doubt. It's not easy. Please tell me about it. But I guess we're so used to each other. Daily messages & calls, regular datings and such. And I'm very happy to say we haven't had any bickering for the past months. Thumbs up to us both! :) I'm left with another year. And ouh, only I know what that means.

Fai and Nurul,
i miss you both.

Mars,
i'm sorry for that rushing sushi dinner. We do a proper one next time okay?

Hugs to all.

16:27 - Friday, Apr. 11, 2008

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.dep.mode.

it's just one of those days.
no matter what or how you do things.
everything just seems so wrong.
and why is it now?

09:20 - Tuesday, Mar. 18, 2008

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the ALL IMPORTANT list

[Edited;11Mar08]
Woohoo! I'm left with 5, 6, 7. But did i tell you i have a new TO-DO LIST? *haiz*
It never end.
[/Edited]

I figure I should be listing down my TO-DO LIST here so that I would be reminded of them whenever I log on to this page.

March To-Do List
5. Get K to transfer the video to disc
6. Input the children's grading form for the first batch submission before the 16th and subsequently by the end of this month
7. Plan and execute *ahem* Fai's birthday before the day itself (which includes finding the gift for her)

And well, I'm left with a week for most of the things listed. No, I did not procrastinate. Maybe yes, at this point while typing.

17:30 - Tuesday, Mar. 04, 2008

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the ALL IMPORTANT list

I figure I should be listing down my TO-DO LIST here so that I would be reminded of them whenever I log on to this page.

March To-Do List
1. Prepare my presentation by 10th Mar
2. Hidhir's birthday on the 9th Mar (at this moment, it's still in the level of discussion between me and him. right, no suprise. i hate it remember?)
3. 10-11th Golf Camp!!! (Get the CAMP materials & petty cash!!)
4. Record my two Teaching Videos before the 15th Mar
5. Get K to transfer the video to disc
6. Input the children's grading form for the first batch submission before the 16th and subsequently by the end of this month
7. Plan and execute *ahem* Fai's birthday before the day itself (which includes finding the gift for her)

And well, I'm left with a week for most of the things listed. No, I did not procrastinate. Maybe yes, at this point while typing.

17:30 - Tuesday, Mar. 04, 2008

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Press Play. I need to PAUSE.

I don't know what I've put myself into.
But I swear I'm gonna get pretty busy til the end of March. (Alamak fai, cammane eh?)

So yesterday, I went for the meeting and did my presentation (which btw, the slide wasn't done from me).
At the end of the meeting, all the chairmen, the project coordinator and the chief(honestly,i dunno his post) decided to have 3 speakers on that very day. And guess what? "So and so..you would be presenting this key topic. And Hidayah right? Okay you would present the Outreach....If everyone agrees to it, we would proceed...."

And i'm like stunned. At that very moment, I wish I could speak up there and then and voice my objection.
You know why? Cos this event is so-called a very big event. Who's my audience? The mayor, MPs and community, roughly the scale of 200 over audience. And I only left with a week to prepare my stuffs for submission. ARGHHHH!! Why?!?!

I felt the pressure twice this week.
Monday is going to be the staff competition which I'm not ready for. Of course lah. All the while I only did my full swing at the range and never at the golf course. I bet my ball would only go 10m from the teebox or maybe, I did a very nice swing but the ball is still on the tee . Die! And the best of all, my partner is none other than my supervisor. The last time she tested me on my TC i was sweating like hell and I bet on this day I'm gonna feel as though I'm in a sauna. I really feel like taking MC and skip it. I would just do it you know.

And the next thing is grading for the upcoming PTC. I'm sure you wonder how it's gonna be done. The same goes for how you evaluate the child on his progress in cognitive skills, this would be more of gross motor. But in golf terms.

So you see why I'm busy now? Like very very busy. There you go and Ah-Ti please come back to work soon. It gets tiring taking the classes on my own. But before that do get well soon and have a good rest before coming back!!

Let's pray for my long awaited result.

09:22 - Thursday, Feb. 28, 2008

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Yes? No.

Lo & behold.

I only have few hours left before I'm all set to enjoy my holidays. Why does he has to work? *sigh*

To my fellow Chinese friends/colleagues, Happy Lunar New Year!!

What Hidayah Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

"Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person..." Why? Tell me about it. Haha.

"People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality." Mcm dia tau je...

And the best of it all,

"You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start..."

Like my semangat dua-minit. Mcm faham!! Hmmph. And yes, even though it does reflect about myself. I don't think it's really true. Believe it just for the sake of fun!

10:04 - Wednesday, Feb. 06, 2008

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I don't get it how that fucking thing can have all my past blog entries from year 2003 all the way til 2008.
And the best part is, all the entries come from 3 different blog url.
I don't even know it existed until I googled my name.
I'm freaking mad!!!!!
Now you tell me!!

14:49 - Tuesday, Jan. 29, 2008

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When You're Gone

In Loving Memory of Snowbell
27 January 2001 - 26 January 2008

Last week has been the worst for me this year. Sometimes, it's weird but yet true when you only realised how significant that thing/person is when he/she/it is gone. Or, when you know you're gonna lose them. Tsk tsk.

When Nina told me what happened to Snowbell, I just couldn't believe it. Because the last time I saw him, he was so healthy and very manja. I mean he would be if he didn't fall. He has this habit when he would come to you and gesek your leg. And a few times when I slept over at my aunt's place, he would be in Nina's room and stayed on the bed. At that point, it annoyed me cos his fur was all over my face. I'm gonna miss you.

And to you, I'm just glad to start a new chapter with you.

"You are so lucky you have a man who loves you..."

12:14 - Tuesday, Jan. 29, 2008

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.one of those days.

To live in a reality, it's just OUCH!

13:51 - Wednesday, Jan. 23, 2008

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Sucker for Mac

I want this pretty badly!
And damn I miss my iBook!

18:20 - Tuesday, Jan. 15, 2008

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You Give Me Something

I've never done it here.
But, cheers to our 18months baby!
Thank you for putting up with me.

Love.

18:03 - Tuesday, Jan. 15, 2008

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Big Bang! And Forever 21

Turning 22 wasn't so bad afterall.

And, it doesn't matter how old you are but rather the person you really are.

My 22nd was better than last year simply because the whole day was all worth it, spending time with love ones.

The celebration started the night before with my colleagues' treat at Simpang Bedok. Casual dinner with Jeanie, Wati, Aley and Nin were lovely. And thank you to the rest of them for the presents. I already worn the top for my golf course and I smear by body every night with the lotion. I'm utilising all of them kay.

The day itself started pretty nervous. I finally met him after 21 years. And seeing you first on my 22nd was so surreal.

I almost teared when I saw you. I'm just waiting for that fateful day :)

Lunch at Bistro Delifrance with mum and dad. It was a quick one since my mum had to get back to work after that. Thank you Pa for that lunch treat! And please stop mentioning it over and over. I'm sick of it.
And since Fai told me that we're gonna meet up at 8pm I took a nap once I was home. I thought it was weird when Fai told to meet up at Farrer Park. And the fact that she warned me about getting wet was worse! I know I was being a spoil sport but I hate to be in messy situation. Especially getting wet on your birthday. Blindfolded from Serangoon Road and I knew I was up for a surprise. Kak Lin's condo was in mind because of the few hints. After waiting for what seems forever, when I finally saw the corner that was decorated with balloons and all, I was just in shocked! The whole ambience was wonderful!! And i was made princess for the day with my wand and party hat. Haha.They tricked me here and there with the cupcakes. Then came Mars with the lighted cupcakes. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww....I swear I was gonna teared again. I knew it was my tear of joy!Presents from the girls are great!! I love them to bits and pieces. Lol. Thank you Fai, Nurul, Mars, Kak Lin and Zamir.

Well, celebration with Hidhir came later part of the day. I met him, Nin (kau celebrate bday aku dua kali..touching ah beb), Liyana and Shahrul for dinner/supper at Newton. Their treat again. Haha. Thank you so much! Chilled til 2am and I was finally on bed at 4 am. I only had 3 hours of sleep before I gotta go to work. But it was all worth it!

Told ya my 22nd was a big bang! Haha...

10:59 - Wednesday, Jan. 09, 2008

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Twenty-One + One.

Thank you.
Mum.Dad.
Fai.Nurul.Mars.KakLin.Zamir.
Aley.Wati.Jeanie.Nin
Liyana.Nin.Shahrul.Hidhir.
And those who remembered.

My 22nd rocks!!!!!

(P/S: Pics will be up soon!

13:35 - Saturday, Jan. 05, 2008

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'07 in '08

Well Hello 2008!!

I was too occupied to brief my 2007. And when I get the chance to I think I should.

Of course, it's a helluva ride...going thru bits and pieces of life here & there.

New job and a new circle of friends.

Learning to be more responsible is very hard coming from a person like me.

You start to put others before you just so everything runs smoothly and everyone's happy. Partly, working has made me do it. And I guess it's time I should. I'm not going younger. *rolls eyes*

And then, I met new people who welcomed me into their lives. It's been fun. Obviously, you see all kinds of antic. And when you see yourself, you become more humble. At least that is to me.

I enjoyed myself with the people at work. They made working life less painful. And the KIDS! God, they are the reasons why I'm still there. If i leave the job, I really would miss this bunch of kids.

Of course, I never forget my friends who's been here with me. Mars, Fai, Nurul, Kak Lin... honestly, without them my life is empty. You girls rock my world. I miss them more than I miss Hidhir. Really. And AMY, I think we didn't get a chance to meet in 2007. Perhaps this year we would. I never forget you girl.

My relationship have seen the worst yet. Despite those issues we fought over, I think at the end of the day what matters is just US. It's called tough love eh? We're both similar but yet different in some ways. I don't have any worries about him. Except for that flaring temper but other than that, he's very stable. And I need to work on my attitude too. And hopefully, he socialises with my friends. ;)

I'm looking forward to a wonderful year in 2008. Like get acquainted with new and old friend, do the deeds that i should have done in '07 and getting myself my dued licence.

21:27 - Wednesday, Jan. 02, 2008

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